deligence

2 peter 1 it talks about us being diligent in our faith, to supply moral excellence, and in our moral excellence, knowledge, in knowledge, self-control, in our self-control, perseverance, and in our perseverance, godliness and in our godliness, brotherly kindness, and in our brotherly kindness, love. It goes on to say that if these qualities are ours and increasing they render us neither useless or un-fruitful in the true knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. If we lack these we are blind, short sighted and have forgotten our purification of the sins we used to be in. Peter urges us to be all the more diligent to make sure His(God)calling and choosing us, so that as long as we practice these qualities will never stumble. 

I read this passage this morning, and was so encouraged by it. Why is it so easy to be lazy? I have spent pointless hours doing things that can never bring me a step closer to my certainty with Christ. I have not been fruitful, I have had this urgency to diligence, perseverance,and to longer be stagnant in my faith. I am a lazy person, these qualities Peter urges, are not practiced. I'm challenged to actually gain knowledge over naivety,self-control over, embellishment, excellence not half hearted, kindness over resentment and testiness, and love over judgement and my self-centered world. No one wants to be un-fruitful, I don't want to become forgetful of all the wonderful things God has saved me from. I refuse to be blind, and I want to be certain of God's calling. I'm glad That this has reminded me, I get so blah and tasteless.  

Today, alone in my apartment all day, sends me into this weird mood. I like the solitude sometimes, I think I actually needed it today to think and focus. I tell ya, lately there has been such a battle within me. There are so many anxious thoughts and an urgency for a more passionate driven life. I want to know what choices to make for tomorrow, but I want to be passionate for today, and not let the worry for what tomorrow may bring effect the day I am in now. I  think about the people I know, who live to just get to the next day. I am that too, I guess we all can be. Yesterday, I got to have this great time to talk to God. Just relieve and confess everything on my heart, and actually pray for other people for goodness sake. It was wonderful and things came up that I haven't even realized before. I have been troubled and I have friends that have been troubled lately. There is a continuous fight that we seem to have, and yet how many times do we just let it keep driving into us, without even stopping to just say hey can we pray? Payer, is a such a privilege we have, to be able to talk to God, who is mighty and huge beyond our humanly minds, but He is still like a comforting Father, who will listen. He gives this peace that who ever is burdened and lays it all down truthfully to Him, knows that it doesn't compare to anything this world may offer. I'm grateful that He chooses to listen, and that when I actually get my focus off myself and choose to just listen, there is this gorgeous  connection that makes me have this big burst of love for Him.