I was just reading through my journal today. I like to do this, to remind myself what God is doing in my life and remember what I'm striving towards. God is SO good, I feel bad that I don't thank Him enough you know? I read a page in my journal a couple of weeks ago and just cried. I couldn't believe where I was, in such a dark place, and where I am now! The pages after that, were pages written from a different person; changed and restored . It's quite beautiful actually. Maybe some day I will muster up the courage to share that, but for now, I will share this one:) I just want to love. Love without judgements, labels and status. Love without favoritism and hypocrisy, love without looking at what someone does instead of who they are.
Can I attain such a love? A love that goes beyond my weak attempts, and selfish motives. Can I look past the hurt, humiliation and defile that someone else's mistakes brought me? Can love through the cold heart that starts to resent, become bitter, and turn sour from the hateful things in this world? Can I stay steady and strong in love, with those who don't love in return, who spit on the ground I walk on? Those who make it hard to love them, could I choose to love them anyway?
Love. Such an amazing thing. What a small word for something so big. People may fight over what they believe in. Who's right or who's wrong, in politics and religion. But no matter how different we are, where we grew up, what we've learned, what we believe or stand up for; everyone will stand up for love. Even those who don't understand it. Love is always a favorite, it's my favorite for sure.
I believe this is true, because that is what GOD is, LOVE. He IS love. This is why it's such an honor to be HIS. His love is perfect, unconditional, no attachments, just pure. So love is what I plea for, in this world and in my life. My prayer is to love like He does. To not see people the way the world does, but the way He sees them. I'm so thankful that I can aspire to love the way our Father loves. A desire to share a tiny glimpse of who God is, love.
