I have come to the conclusion, thanks to help of the great loving honesty of Douglas, that I am a worry wort. I have gotten so consumed with making plans for my future, the fear of utter humiliation, failure, expectations, not making the right choices, missing out on great opportunities, and not being good enough. I used to go with the flow, wait last minute to make decisions, and never have this wrenching anxiety like I do now. Thank you Doug for helping me realize I need to simply trust. I'm excited to be in this place, where I can be anything, go anywhere and just be free to follow God's leading. I have to choose to be bold and confident, not in what I can do, but what He does through me, who He has made me to be. I'm letting go, and asking for His help once again. I seem to let satin have more power over me than he actually does. So I refuse to believe the lies coming from that one, myself, or other voices coming at me. I love to be totally dependent on Him, that is where I find strength. I'm happy for the unknown, because It's taking me outside myself  and placing me right into His hands:) The best place. I'm sorry for worrying, I hope in my diligence I can just be faithful to live this day, being my best, and trusting that tomorrow will  be another honor of mine to please and serve Him. Cheesy I know, but that's all I want.

Ahh Facebook. I have decided to let go of the obsession for this week of spring break. Yes, I have been on it a time or two just to check my email, because that's the only way my sister sends her info about bridesmaid dresses/wedding stuff. So I had to get on mine for that reason, but I have to say I didn't look at anything else on the life sucking social network. I'm sure I will get pulled right back in when the time is up. Even after the time I allotted myself is up, I'm hoping to stay off it more. 

I am so free to do other things that actually help me in life. Today, I actually spoke on the phone with my sister instead of endless messages and posts. I haven't a clue what's going on with people, but I just love it to pieces. I spent hours on my guitar in place of the endless hours on the couch, face locked into the computer. I've read some really great blogs and articles that have brought encouragement and understanding:) and spent a wonderful time with God. My day was fun filled, eventful, and productive I feel. I got to take part in great conversations with REAL people, face to face like the old days haha.

 I'm liking this, no Facebook thing! I have to admit, it is hard not seeing pictures of people and events ( I did look at some beach day pics from Jennie Penny's computer) or wanting to see if anyone has written on my wall and keeping up with people I haven't talked to in years. But it has been good.

I don't look down at people on Facebook, and I'm not trying to sound negative about it, I'm just finding it freeing to disconnect.